If you don't wanna read this whole entry just scroll to the bottom to see my halloween costume.

OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD.

Long time no see. EVERYTHING has happened in the last few months since I last wrote on my blog. I won't go into detail, but in short my entire life came crashing down and then got put back together better than before somehow? It was a fucking mess. Just absolutely horrendous. But I'm glad it all happened.

I've been learning how to read Tarot cards. My mom was really into it a few years ago and she's been teaching me a few things. It's nice having stuff in common. She even bought me 2 new decks :) a marseilles one I'm still not very good at reading and this gorgeous nicoletta ceccoli one that has become my main deck. I <3 it because the illustrations remind me of the books I used to read as a child.

Anyways, I mentioned tarot because it's helped me make an important realization. The 10th of the major arcana, the wheel of fortune, is currently my favorite. It represents the cyclical nature of life. Nothing lasts forever, so live the good times to the fullest and in bad times remember that things will always get better. You might be in a completely different place than exactly one year ago, and who knows where you will be next year. In my last entry I was so scared of falling behind with my studies, and guess what? I passed all my classes with great grades and I'm still going strong. Funny how that works. There's also a quote I saw and really loved, "healing happens in circles, you will return to old places with new eyes." Hell yeah. We often think the progression of our lives goes like this: -----------------> but it's more like this: ꔛ〰જ⁀ꔛஐ౨~> you know?

Apart from that, I've started going to the gym again, this time with my best friend. I hadn't been to the gym since 2023 and god DAMN has it been a humbling experience. I used to be able to lift so much weight, now I can't even lift the shittiest tiniest little baby dumbbells. But it's alright, I know I'll get my strength back eventually if I just keep consistent. I've also found for some reason I'm WAY better at cardio than I've ever been. I've always hated cardio so I see it as a plus. And it's fun going with my bestie. She's like a personal trainer but we can gossip on the treadmill.

I went to a halloween party with my friends! I almost never get to go to costume parties on halloween, every single year SOMETHING happens so that I can't go. I was starting to believe I was cursed or something. But this year I went as KARL MARX!!!!!!!!!! slutty Karl Marx with fishnets. I even had a manifesto and a labubu and everything. I ended up going home with a few lipstick kissy marks on my bald spot, and so many people asked me for pictures!! I'm not gonna put them in here for privacy but I even got a picture with a Che Guevara. Iconic.

All my friends looked incredible. Our group consisted of Pinkie Pie, Patrick Bateman, Maxine Minx, Nightwing, Leon Kennedy and of course Marx. Nightmare blunt rotation. Leon and Nightwing let us put fake tramp stamps on them. It's so fun having a mostly female friend group, the guys double as court jesters!!!